living in ohio; currently!
updates:
-i quit my job due to lack of respect in the workplace. oh well. i am doing great money wise.
- i got super drunk last night and wore short shorts and had a shot that tasted like nyquil. ahh i haven’t drank that much or gone out in a while- it was really fun!
- yesterday i fell off my exercise/healthy eating bandwagon, but i am getting back on and not worried about it. my attitude over food has improved so much lately, it is great.
i had such a positive therapy session yesterday. i am taking steps in my life to get my shit together and it feels awesome. i quit smoking, started to work out/yoga, and i am starting a taper plan to get off my meds next week! so exciting. i have been doing alright lately. i just have to keep up the good work and try to look at the positive sides of things.
drinking all of the coffee in the house before work. i just got called in, ugh. i hope i will still manage to be productive once i am done with work. i am in a positive mood today- i hope i can keep it up! :)
need to:
- visit the postoffice
- find a reputable gym
- finish meal plans
- make dr appointments
- i bought an iphone.
- i am starting to lift weights/make meal plans to be healthy!
- i have been super stressed lately.
- i have been crying daily and feeling bummed.
- things are strange.
-finally took the plunge and went driving on the road. my anxiety was quite terrible and i only lasted about 15 minutes. driving is just too much for me right now.
-today is my day off from work. i am relaxing!
-getting much needed letters/writing done.
mango, spirulina, apple, chlorella, barley, broccoli, and spinach smoothie. so yummy <3
- i guess kava tea isn’t for me. the last two times i’ve made some i get migraines, nausea, and dizzy. the added potential of liver damage as a risk is not something i need to be have to combat my anxiety right now. my head is pounding, ugh.
- i miss mark.
- i am just super stressed with body image, anxiety, intimacy, and work.
+ i managed to start making my meal plans again. i went grocery shopping and got tons of fruits & veggies. my meals have been so yummy and hopefully i’ll start feeling better.
i’ve had a migraine all day so didn’t get much accomplished on my day off. trying to sip on some tea and stretch to feel better.
leaving kentucky in the morning. anthony’s funeral gave me so much closure and i am so happy i was able to come to this. i will miss him so, so much, but i am happy he died at peace. i am exhausted. after lots of venting i feel like i am finally growing up, in a good way.
i got more shading done on my arm today. i am doing okay, i guess. keep on keepin’ on..
my best friend, anthony poynter, passed away yesterday from cancer. i still haven’t had time to think much about it. i feel like it isn’t actually true. i am so happy he isn’t in pain anymore. he has taught me so much and is one of the greatest impacts on my life. you’ll be missed, anthony. i don’t have anything too witty or funny to say which is what he would have wanted. i just need to think of all the great memories. anthony- i hope you are sippin’ a rootbeer, chomping down on some pizza, and blasting some avail right now. i love you, dude.
